Forgive & Forget

Is it really humanly possible?

I've been asking myself this question ALOT lately and well I can forgive anyone, any time - but the forget part, well that's where I have trouble. 

 

How do you get past things that truly crush your spirit or your faith in other people?  I've been let down a lot in the past - Lord knows I'm no saint and I know I falter as well, but how does anyone forget?  You do something that cuts someone deep enough - that memory doesn't go away, I don't care who you are.  I'm slowing trying to let it all go and some stuff I have let God take it off my heart because there isn't a thing in the world that I can do about it, but I still remember how it felt to be let down over and over again until I couldn't bare the site of that person so then I was done. I've cut alot of relationships that I wish would have happened alot differently, and now there isn't really a point of return...... So again, I might have forgave that person for that situation, but I still haven't forgotten.

 

I guess it's hard for me with my stubborn personality, I like to argue, and like to have the last word; even though I'm not always right, I still feel like I have to have that last little speech to make myself feel better.  I'm not sure if anyone else in the world does this but if something bothers me to a certain point, I practice a little speech in my head and if the opportunity presents itself, I say my little spill and then I move on..... On the other hand if I never get to say that little speech, it all festers up and I seriously hold on to it for forever.  That's really sad! :(

 

I swear that is one of those "life lessons" that I could live without.  I would like to say "hey - you hurt my feelings, this is how I feel about it, if your sorry we'll get over it, if your not - it's been fun - SEE YA!" Is everyone that warped?

 

So in my efforts of forgiving, I am trying hard to bypass my personality and forget as well - and it is very hard for me... BUT....I am proud that I at least make the effort.